For years, I have experienced a dream where I am naked for some reason, in a public setting. I may be in college attending a class, etc. and I am either completely nude or nude from the waist down. At the start of the dream, it’s not bothering me at all, or very much. By the end of the dream, I am completely embarrassed and trying to either hide or cover myself or break away from what I am doing in the dream to find clothes. No one is ridiculing me in any way or even seems to notice my nudity.
I had always wondered why I had these dreams, I know that many of us have them at some point. They weren’t happening on a regular basis, but they did happen. I just had the realization the other week that shortly after I started figure modeling, this particular dream has disappeared almost overnight. it’s been well over 8 months since I can remember having this type of dream…and I guess I could link it back to my increased comfort of what I do, and with who I am. I have talked previously about the sense of freedom most people get from nude modeling, and how it can translate into other areas of your life. For me, I am a calmer person, especially after a drawing session, and I have more of an attitude of “This is me. I am happier with myself than ever before, take it or leave it.” Much less fretting about what others think, or even wondering what they think.
I know not everyone gets to experience the feeling of freedom that nude modeling has given me. I read a post by an artist who tried modeling recently, and she did not experience the rush at all, and did not enjoy the experience, which is too bad. I am one of the lucky ones who truly enjoys doing this, and does not see an end to my modeling career any time soon.